Peace of Mind Is the Wrong Answer. Peace “from” Mind Is the Right One.

Because nothing can trouble you as much as your own thoughts.

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I forgot to brush the day before yesterday.

I was tired and I thought I brushed. When I woke up, I realized I didn’t. Immediately I had some “good" thoughts in my mind:

“What if my dentists figure this out?” “He’s gonna make me feel worse the whole month.” “I should have reverified the last day.” “I suck.”

I committed on the 2nd of January to write an article every day doesn’t matter whether I publish it or not.

I quickly went for a shower, brushed off and sat down to write. I was still thinking about not brushing the last day.

I couldn’t write anything. People say, “change your position and change your condition.” I thought of trying it: I lied down with a phone to write. But, I couldn’t write.

People also say, “when you can’t create, consume.” I read 13 Medium stories, listened to three podcasts and watched nine youtube videos the whole day but still, I didn’t have anything to write about.

While consuming them, I was still thinking “what if my dentist figures this out?” plus “what if I fail to keep my writing commitment?” multiplied by “my time…